After the second half of the last post, I don't think I will be dwelling on the past or making many posts about my younger years as an editor. Someone needed to give those names a giant reality check but I've now found an outlet that's much more personally productive and fun for that rage; hence my knuckles in the video below. I finally found that punching bag at the UFC gym here and I'm hyped. Now I just need some gloves.
Truth can never be subverted and my direct involvement isn't required for their inevitable collapse. There are other forces taking care of that and I get to just watch the sand pass through the hourglass. I'm definitely still writing the essay about that monster Chappelle was talking about though and it might include some things from those years.
I've been doing a lot of contemplating on what makes sadistic pleasure different from enjoying someone being brought to justice. It's not a black and white thing. I think while I was on that whole ahimsa and martyrdom tip it felt "wrong" to celebrate any situation in which a person suffers at all. But, once you expand further and realize you're here on Earth to create now and your loyalty is towards something much higher than an individual; you acknowledge the hard fact there are circumstances in which the necessary suffering of one human being will have a net effect on reducing the suffering for all sentient beings. When all these people from my past that took parts of my soul and innocence start having meltdowns and getting served with swift justice, I am for sure having a big party and breaking out the popcorn. I am no angel (yet) and as much as I'd like to say it's going to be about celebrating the reduction of suffering for other beings, I'm pretty sure there's going to be a little bit of that other stuff too and I've come to realize that's okay.
I honestly don't know "who" or "what" I'm channeling below. Is it samadhi energy? Is it the energy of Lord Shiva himself? Am I that Lord Shiva and so are you? Are these all the same thing? Time will tell but for now I'm having fun.
I say "maybe she needs it" at the beginning because some old lady pulled right up to me when I was about to start rapping and I was getting cold feet. Then I was like, nah, lets do this; maybe granny needs to catch some of that OG trident 🔱
